New room

This last couple of weeks has been rough. Jayden is turning back into a little devil. I love him but he is really testing me right now. I almost took him back to PCMC on Saturday. I really dont want to but if he continues with his behavior I feel I have no other choice. Today was a good day though. Minimal breakdowns. We did spend the day looking for caterpillars though. Just what he wanted to do. He even touched a GINORMOUS spider, bigger than a black widow! It literally disgusted me!

Theres just been too much drama and craziness in my life. I want to decorate my room and make it comfy and relaxing! I cant say exactly what my theme is but I purchased a lamp in the gift shop at work. I plan on getting another one also. I just a want a place to relax before bed that is just for me. No Jayden and no work. I have searched many websites looking for the perfect one. This seems to be the closest. It comes with everything on the bed. 20 pieces! As you can imagine it is kinda pricey, that is why I hesitate in buying it. I want some opinions! I normally go for dark colors but I want this room to be light.

My lamp is similar to this one. It is taller and it is very pretty!

This is the bed set. What do you think? Do they go together? Im just not sure!

We've got a REAL winner!

I am sitting here, a few hours after battling it out with Jayden, wondering how single moms survive. How have I survived? I am proud to call myself a single mom only because I've worked hard and will continue to work hard because thats just who I am. There are single parents out there that get help from another parent and there are parents who dont. I am part of the latter. I dont enjoy being an only parent to my child. I despise it. There are times when I want to have a break, a few hours is all, but I cant. Sure Jayden is in school now, that helps. But when he comes home hes all mine. That means no trips to the bathroom without him right outside the door. We cant even be more than 5 feet apart without him being scared. I am not making that up. If he has to walk more than 5 feet away he is saying, "Mom....Mommy......Mom" over and over just to hear my voice so he knows I have not left him. Yea it was no big deal at first but now its just down right irritating. When I say I need a break, I REALLY need a break. I dont party, I dont go out with friends much, its just me and him. For the most part I am ok with it but occasionally when we are really butting heads I would like to be able to drop him off at another parents house and say, "I'll be back in a few hours". According to the sperm donor in my situation Jaydens behavior is normal. All kids behave that way. If Jaydens behavior was normal would he have been hospitalized 2x in the last 10 months because of his behavior? Even if I was a crazy Mom, which I am not denying at this point, they do not keep kids in the hospital unless they need it. Lets just say that would be some expensive child care. My point is people should not assume that they know everything. I am tired of being fed stories, of thinking that maybe someone has finally changed and decided to step it up. Sometimes I think I must be really confused but then I realize I just want what most people want, a Mother and a Father for their child. I am tired of it all. I will not stand for my child to be put 2nd any longer. Not 2nd to other siblings, to a girlfriend, to anyone. Sure I could use some help but not from a person who does not want to help or be there for there child. Men can be dead beat dads regardless of whether they pay child support. A true Dad is there 24/7 even if its just a phone call away and that doesnt mean only call when your girlfriend is at work so you dont have to deal with her questions and insecurities. Some girls may be dumb enough to keep dealing with selfish men but I for one am done with them.

Hand Molds

So after being asked many times, by parents, to make hand molds on their baby and n0t being able to I decided it was time for me start doing them. I had watched them be done a handful of times and did some research on the net. I started doing them a couple of months ago and love it! The first time I did them they turned out great! They are difficult, I wont lie, but I have had fun figuring it out. I cant wait to buy the stuff and do them for all my new neices and nephews, whenever I get more. Most likely in January. I have them from Madyson and I truelly treasure them. I wish I had some from when Jayden was a baby. The pic above is just off the web but basically that is what I have been doing. It makes my nights go by quick and I hope it pleases the parents of the precious babies that I get to take care of! I have the best job ever!

What can I say?

Can I just say I am so glad that Jayden is back in school? He has destroyed our house this summer while I was busy napping. He likes to make every room his toy room. Its makes our life chaotic as he likes to make the mess but hates to have to clean it up. I get mad, he gets upset and the mess is still there in the end. With him in school I can sleep without worrying about what toys I am going to step on when I leave my room or my bed for that matter. But he really is a pretty good kid. He loves to be outside collecting insects or just running around like a crazy man. He has become so much more social this summer. A few days ago he had some friends over and was so happy to show me "all of them"! It was too funny!

His first day of school! I couldn't convince him not to wear his Bug collecting vest. It was not worth the battle. Mrs Ricky convinced him to take it off at school though. He insisted 0n wearing his slip on shoes rather than his new Etnies. What do you do? At the store he wanted me to buy him some Nike Cortez's. They are what his Uncle Anthony(whom he doesnt really know:-( )used to wear. Arthur wore them too, I'm sure. I think they are ugly and a little to gangsta for my taste! I started calling his sperm donor, Arthur, in front of him instead of Dad. It may be wrong but until he quits coming up with excuses thats just how its going to be. I know I am evil! Haha!

I took Trev and Jayd fishing one night and Jayden had to have his pic taken by this bobcat. He was so happy.

My poor car

On Tuesday I hit a large wood box on the freeway going 60 mph and this is what happened to my car. I wish I could have avoided it but it flew into my lane after another car knicked it. I drove for like 5 miles without any issues and then my car made aweful noises and started overheating. It still kept screaching for like 5 min after I turned it off. I started panicking and of course tried to get a hold of my Dad, who had already left the house. I dont like dealing with this kind of stuff on my own. I called my insurance who took care of everything for me. Within 20 min I had a rental and a tow truck on the way. My radiator was gone along with many other things. It caused $2500 in damages. RIDICULUS I tell you. I was livid, still am. I wasnt wearing my seatbelt either and ended up with whiplash and a sore back. I usually wear it, I dont know what happened that day! I got to drive around in a 2010 Ford Focus for the next 3 days and can I just say,"Those cars are awesome"! I would totally buy one. I actually wanted to keep it for thw weekend but unfortunately my car was fixed on Friday. The front end looks so pretty! I am glad I am alive and no one was hurt but wish I could hurt the person who let that box drop on the freeway.

Busy, bUsY, BUSY!!!

We have been very busy lately packing, moving, cleaning, and unpacking. I have also spent a lot of time shopping for new decorations, a new vaccuum, a washer and dryer, and many other things. We are finally settling in with only a few more decorations to put up. Well thats only for now. I intend to buy much more! I have a specific style that I like and although I buy most of my items on sale or using coupons its still adds up. I like alot of things grouped together.

We were able to move into a 3 bedroom, 1 1/2 bathroom townhouse with a fenced in backyard and a garage. We only share walls with one family to the side of us. Which is on the opposite side of our bedrooms. Its much nicer! I will post pics tomorow if I have time. I inte to buy a few more things for my living room and I am waiting for my shower curtain hooks to come so I can put up my shower curtain. I want to buy a book shelf, a couple of sofa tables, new comforter sets for the beds and a kitchen table. I also want a patio set and a futon. I am sure there is more stuff too. LOL. I am never satisfied for long! I have been watching KSL for the furniture items but havent been to impressed. I think I have decided to just buy a brand new table. I was looking for something cheap but decent and I havent seen much. This is what I want:

What do ya think?

I will try to update more tomorow but for now I must get to bed!

Road Trip

A couple of weeks ago we all went up to Gossers to get cheese, to Pepperidge Farms for Fish crackers and cookies, to Idaho to get lottery tickets and get scratch tickets, to the Hardware Ranch to see the elk and to see Tiff and the boys. It was an all day event and it was pretty fun! I loved seeing the Elk! I cant really eat the cheese now as I am doing WW again. But maybe eventually Jayd will eat it. I wore 6'' heels as I knew we would be driving a lot and I wouldnt have to stand on my feet a ton. Well I went to get in the car and sprained my ankle, walked like a dork for a few weeks and screwed up my hips and back. Its been pretty painful! Thanks to having an Uncle as a Chiropractor and heating pads and Ibuprofen it is on the mend, I think? I am sure that with packing and moving I will screw it up again but what can you do? Life goes on whether you are in pain or not! It doesnt help that I have to work so many extra shifts either. I love my job but bending over those cribs, giraffes, and isolettes sure takes its toll on my body. The cute babies are worth it though! I had 111 hours on my last check. Normally I work 72 hours but with moving and not getting very much back on my taxes = working a lot! I will survive though!