Jayden

On December 10th Jayden was admitted to a neuropsychiatric unit in SLC. It has been a rough 1 1/2 weeks. I always thought that it would be great to have a break from him. I am not one to really like to much peace and quiet and thats all I seem to have lately. Its quite depressing. I can go visit him and I try to go up every other day. I would love to go every day but its just too expensive. I miss him so much! Our visits are often short because he is very irritable right now. He doesnt like people asking him questions and he has had some behavior issues. They had originally taken him off of all of his meds but have had to add 3 new ones because he was so hyper. I mean like literally couldnt sit still for more than 2 seconds. He has a flat affect and they are wondering if he has some depression going on. Its weird to think a 6 year old could be depressed but I just want him to get some help to be happy again. He seems to like it up there but I think he still wants to come home. It may actually be months before he truelly gets to. Unless these meds magically work by the time the holidays are over he may require more treatment. This throws off everything but at this point the only thing that matters to me is that he is happy. I worried about how he was sleeping up there because at home he always slept in my bed, which will now be a thing of the past.It sounds liek he has been sleeping good. His roommate told us that Jayden was the best roommate ever. The Art therapist said Jayden has amazing artistic talent. She said whatever pictures he didnt want she would take. He really is great, he has an eye for detail, and can draw things from memory. I have been lost lately. This week is guaranteed to be rough as well. Jayds 7th Birthday is on Wednesday. He is not really to excited and we planned on going to Chuck E Cheese but instead we will take him a Happy Meal and some cupcakes and spend it at the "Hospital". We cant even take all his presents because he cant keep them there and we cant show him them and then take them away. He should be able to come home for a few hours on Christmas Day. That should be nice. I know he really wants to see Kaylee. I hope that we can get him situated and not ever have to take him back but as I have been going up there I have noticed that it seems kids visit there repeatedly. I really cant do this to much. Its all just mentally exhausting. I have been on the verge of tears all the time. Not cool but I guess it just comes with the territory.