Saturday, September 27, 2008

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Boring, oh so boring!

So my life has been pretty boring lately. Not that its ever that exciting. I was lucky enough to pick up some extra shifts this week for my friend who is in Disneyworld. I am jealous of her. I haven't been out of the state in awhile now. I want to take Jayden to Disneyland after I have graduated. I am thinking next fall... spring at the latest. I need a vacation!!! I just took a final today for my Marriage and Family class. Friday I take my final for World Religions. I should be finishing my study guide but owell. My birthday is in 19 days. I am going to buy myself some new scrubs and new shoes. I cant wait! How lame am I that that's all I have to look forward to?

Monday, September 15, 2008

Sunday, September 14, 2008

My life

I have a 4 1/2 year old son named Jayden. I work as an LPN at American Fork Hospital, which I absolutely love!!! Working in the nursing field is mentally and physically challenging, but it is the most rewarding job I have ever had! I am pursuing my RN degree at Ameritech College. As long as I pass all of my classes I will be done May 29, 2009. It has been very difficult going to school full time and trying to be a mom. Most of the time I am stressed and about to pull my hair out. Knowing that I will soon be able to give my son everything he needs is what keeps me going.

Jayden has aspergers, a mild form of autism. It has been a huge challenge and I am sure it always will be. He has been getting lots of help and is doing really well. This year he is at a special preschool for autistic children called Giant Steps. This is a huge blessing and we are so thankful that he was accepted. It’s also great because he goes all day, four days a week. It is a much needed break for myself and for my mom who watches him while I go to school. Although he often drives me nuts I love him more than anything.

They say the Lord doesn’t give more than you can handle but I am sure he had to have made a mistake. I do not have much patience and I really struggle with all of Jayden’s behavior problems. I guess that I was blessed with this child to teach me patience. I started this blog to hopefully get some advice and to help me stay sane as I love to blog my feelings.

Aspergers

The horrible thing about Aspergers is that the autistic child looks completely normal. Unlike normal developing children, Jayden lacks social and communication skills. He love other children and wants to be with them all the time, but he does not fully understand how to get along with them. This often scares the children away. The older he gets the better he does, so my hope is that eventually he will be able to have a more “normal” social life. The hardest part for me is the looks I receive when he is misbehaving. The look that says, “get your spoiled child under control.” It breaks my heart that people can be so cold.

I cringe at the thought of having to run into the grocery store with him. Even if I am running in to get one thing which would normally take 5 minutes takes up to 30 minutes with Jayden. He throws a fit because he wants to look at the toys if I don’t take him it gets worse if I leave the store without looking at the toys I hear about it the rest of the day. If I take him to look at the toys then he wants one. It is usually not the 99 cent car that I offer to buy it’s the pack of five cars that costs $10. Then he throws a fit when I tell him he cant have it. There is no bargaining like you can do with most children. He knows what he wants. So I can’t win. Now that he is in school I can go to the store without him but there are still other places where I will get that look. People need to be more aware of these children and their behaviors and support and help the parents not be rude to them.